Today's work day ends and I'm going home from work today, unusually somewhat later than usual.
Not that it did not work and I had a lot of work and it all somehow delayed because of other people, but still represents to Studénka (STAUDING) in the local pub for a beer, just because I have an hour time to go before I train, but not sitting today As usual, at the same table with the local regulars rather sit alone. On its black glass eyes, looking around at the usual local natives and watching how here and there looking at me. Maybe he thinks I'm completely fallen on his head, sitting in a pub where the sun off my eyes and black glasses, but not angry at them because they are inherently its truth, it really is no sun shining.
That is still not lit, still lit, and so
glass of beer
I sit and I look at them.
Thinking of You
and a little inside me Zeb
and I say that even though it's exactly like how it was at this point is that there really is some love because I feel inside that moment, I feel that when wearing just know that you mean to me, so I can trust what is happening, but on the other hand, however, still treat the the idea that you know that just as you know so well as I do.
That simply can not not know what is happening just on the other side of the world and you're actually on it in much the same as I do. Because it's just communication over the Internet, a telephone and a few SMS messages to me from missing you, maybe even not know what is really sad to me and that's not even just because you can not, because you just like that.
Because it's just so cool to their own selfish and access to you completely natural and innate, and so are you taking me to leave so that only the mercy of my fate.
Maybe you think it's just so, but no, it's just normal and ordinary course of things that just happen, maybe everything is faster and differently than it may seem to you and believe me, I really mean and it upsets me that are not writing me and things like that.
But I do not want to be angry, but I just do not want to do such and that nothing happens when you just going because it's happening. And it happens that I think of you and that I am sad for you was great, right out to you personally, because I know you're probably a lot of trouble and so on that you do not have neither the time nor the mood and maybe, he is too short a time as we know.
So well in fact it's all one.
Do not think I'm doing this on purpose, but somehow I just feel recklessness, not intentional, but simply one that would be in a relationship, where the happiness and love to be doing quite a nice mess, and I know they could lose the very moment when we or maybe not really in the worst case would not say how beautiful and serious relationship, there would be basically one of those hidden insincerity.
One of those invisible people that you do not even realize how many times and then the other wonders and thinks that the latter is no longer loved, and then disappearing among them the true love that is actually built only and only on mutual trust and tolerance and that vanishes also lucky in that respect the rule that, because then some fear one another, doing things behind his back, as mindful of its counterpart.
They take account of the fact that it does not touch, that it somehow offend or angry because they know that the other one would be likely to confuse and basically just because these things undercover succumbing to a sense of fear and eventually prevail in respect of such distrust, and basically all alone that the two apart cohabitant delays, because the other side can not feel happy because they feel happier yourself, but to entrust the other, because he knows.
He knows that the other scolded them or would not like to just such as they actually are really in the whole essence of his personality alone, but it so well even if they do not want change and they are so unruly as well as by some accidental way, where eventually they will remain only one feeling and one that the other simply does not like, though I admit it and they think it is ... But it's not, because in essence, lying.
They lie to themselves. First they lie to themselves and then also around, but nobody does not like it when he was lying. Paradoxical.
I know that love is one consideration, because if one takes into account the other so it proves that it likes. He likes it, but do not feel happy or happy, either only just satisfied or is no longer a mere hypocrisy.
So certain amount of consideration actually prevents mutual feelings of happiness, because in the end the same way some people adapt themselves te situci and just change.
Change, because if you actually want to continue to be concerned with this man, if only because they like it or because they somehow it suits, or simply because you just do not want to change anything they want with it and man had somehow live because it's actually a, well, we basically every man, I enjoyed my, we experienced what we experienced, and so I survive it together somehow and slowly begins to prevail in relation indifference.
So it it can be any doklepat together, but I would not want to spend such Darling period because it's pretty sad silence and basically no one lives in it.
Moreover, what is it like to actually have someone? What is meant by somebody to love? I just really love?
I just love the word, as I take them to respect each other and with all those of either positive or negative qualities and taking things done and done even if it is not possible to love, but each of us some, and something we are doing something in us Just then somehow meets and makes them happy at the moment. I think everyone wants to be loved for what really is in fact with everything and everyone to feel good, satisfied and happy.
People usually think that if someone somehow tell him that he loves so that's it and then gets into a position where feeling emotions that are unloved and then after that some other forces with their own feelings and conflicts and dichází quarrels and various other stressful conditions, when one another based on some of the other love getting into a position where he ceases to be themselves.
Well let's face it, each in our own way bullies and victims, but it's also the fact that everyone behaves the way he simply belongs, and yet feel satisfied and happy, just maybe does not make each other happy.
Just inside each of us hides a piece of sadists and masochists, and this does not associate with sex even when it relates to him very, because that then formed the most certain human sexual deviations where everyone eventually begins to find what satisfies it internally and feel while actually happy.
I still am concerned by what it actually be really happy are plenty of ways to feel happy all the time, but it is actually only about whether a person can feel happy with themselves or each other feel happy.
Honey I'm sorry for me, but you want happiness and to feel happy all the time, I believe that some sort of want it, because somehow it has to be and I know that at this very moment, even though I have chosen in the head all those feelings and thoughts about happiness and love, so I know that right now I feel happy because it is now very worry, because even when I write that I think and believe it though, so I know that you does not matter to me as well as it should.
Excuse me darling, but really just at that moment I feel unloved, and when I take into account the nature of your potential, so I think that the place name you would probably feel exactly the same.
I get quite a sadness in her eyes what was going on and maybe it could be quite different if ...., but it seems as if
orphaned human body
love of what they soared
is lost
like birds in the clouds.
Orphaned human body
visibly froze
pile of shadows
saliva thrown in the face of its own dejection ...
But it's too late for some if it happens in the meantime a lot of things that you are not one, but basically a way, I have yet to really matter and I know that this would not feel so lucky and we happily even if each respected and tolerated, so I'm sorry Honey, but I can not go back so I was alone.
Just Me and a beer somewhere and you do not know where.
I know that if this happened to you, and I let you down, you'd have me as it probably did not like, just sometime in the future, what we should be together for me, you like it and certainly would not have told me that somehow a nice revenge I believe that if we are really the same as what the two crows sit together, so I know that the revenge was pretty harsh, I know that we are able to jointly work out somehow slowly over time, numerous discussions and a variety of mutual misunderstanding, but why wasting the time between when I was such that when I want something so that I can and I just go for it regardless, perhaps as ruthless as you can do it You and I believe that if YOU want something, so also you have now and what soon as possible, so I think that even ruthlessness to love one, but you do want to live in happiness.
I do not know about just how lucky you are standing, but I still directed to the wave, one that can bring good luck in the future not only me, but above you and then maybe even other people who really want it to be understood.
Finally I come to Ostrava-Poruba, but not going home because my accumulated rage and anger at it all and so I'm going to give even more beer and not one and I know that
small and large will mean the drink
is slightly innocent
but hard to live.
Who's eyes can not see
It does not hurt heart
and does go on.
I wanted to hit everything and just let it be, but that would probably not reach where I want to you, to my goals and also really do not know how long it may take that time in between, but not angry at you baby, because I know that it simply can not know because it's just dirty and not know as well as I can guess, and I know a lot of those things that just happen to two different worlds.
I'm not angry at you, but if nothing else, they simply just want you to know, regardless, if you really cared for me as I write it or not.
But the time in between just does not stop even if you meant it sincerely and seriously that you arrive on Saturday. If you really have the words meaning, but it does not matter if I ever learn this, so they would know and if not then it just will not have to do so live with it too, if you think it is just to tell you and send you another text message, because I want you to know how it really is
I do not close,
only in my eyes
two wild little faith.
For me what you got
forgetting
flying to the wormhole.
Valley of crows
it will fly itself,
already looking for a touch of beauty.
For hungry gates
rude,
have a fire of salvation.
Mad at the beginning.
Your Hair in memory,
I tighten the story.
I'm going home to lie down and sleep, I'm really out of the beer to you worn out, but forgive me, otherwise it just did not work.
so far .. bye kiss and do not worry, I'm with you Baby!
written - 26 June 2008 at 10:09 | Mathiesz - Prince of Silesia | LOVE or feelings and emotions on a dirty mind ...
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